Disappointed About My Weight

Here I am again on my never ending square one, arrrgh! I hate it! I've been battling with these extra bulges for almost fifteen years now. Everytime I lose some weight, I immediately gain it. I don't know what to do anymore. I tried going to the gym, drinking slimming pills, diet tea...name it, I tried it. And yet here I am a lazy couch potato...often eating, blogging, sleeping. I hate this feeling. I'm sorry if I set negative vibes here but I just really want to blog out what I really feel inside. I know being able to lose weight I need discipline...and I lack big time. Currently I am a 180 lbs fat gal... hoping I could lose at least 20 lbs in the next two months. I will try to lose these extra weight again by drinking maggi, a diet pill recommended by my friend Jhay and will also try to drink the slimming coffee recommended by my officemate Mommy Rose. I would also cut down my rice intake and would do some jogging starting next week. God help me...I don't want to be like this anymore....